Its been so long since my last post I cant even count the days

I must admit, I've been a bit inconsistent with posting and  honestly I have no excuses. Life is happening and I'm just going with it.

So, now that I'm back, updates are in order!

The last time I shared, I was on a job hunt. I was looking for a higher paying full time job and I now have one.
I took an entry level position at a well known hospital, here, in Chicago. I have to be honest, I wasn't too thrilled about the pay that they offered me; Although it is a much higher hourly rate than my part time job, I had a higher number in mind. Not only because of my Bachelors degree but also because I've got some experience in the field, surely that should count for something! Before I was even offered the position I was aware that people with less experience and no degree were making a certain amount so I gauged my own offer off of that, expecting more. When I found out I would be making less I was pissed, I'm not going to lie. I was just starting to feel that my degree was worth nothing and that I wasn't being valued, it was definitely discouraging. Eventually, I was able to see the bright side. My bills will be paid, I wont starve and I will finally be able to move out of my mom's house. Also,  I plan to seek a higher paying position within the hospital in a couple of months and this position is a great way for me to get my foot in the door! I want your bosses position bih!


Meanwhile I'm still working my part time job, enrolled in school, and completing my internship.

My life is hectic and it isn't slowing down anytime soon.

I'm just grateful for Sundays (my only off day) and really any small moments of peace I get.

Besides work, my weight loss has been the forefront of my life since I've been gone. I'm happy to say that its going great! I'm no longer in the 200s! I'm back in the coveted 100s and I vow to never let myself backpedal. I feel so much better and I cant wait to share what I've been doing and where I am exactly on that journey in a more detailed post!

Socially,
I've been in a weird place. Part of me would like to hang out and be around close friends and the other part of me hates everyone and just wants to be alone. In case you haven't noticed, I can be a bit moody. I can feel myself isolating myself from people that I would otherwise want to be around. My phone is on Do Not Disturb more often than not.  I feel like I'm just going through a weird phase in my social life where I kind of still care and don't give a fck, all at the same time. I'm way too good at falling back. I'm a big believer in " what will be will be" I'm not into forcing friendships and relationships if I'm really not feeling them/it. While I don't think anything is wrong with that, my only concern is that when I was going through a deep depression, I isolated myself in a similar way, the only difference now is that I'm not really sad. I'm just focused. I don't know if I'm just too busy to be depressed or if everything is just all good. I think that's something people who have suffered from depression go through, when things start to go well or life is not as gloomy as it used to be, we wonder if the sadness is really over, if things are really better, or if the darkness is just  looming behind the next corner. Anyhow, I can say that currently I'm not sad and I haven't been in a while and I feel like right now, certain aspects of my life are going well. My social life is just in a weird limbo space but honestly, I'm just going with the flow.

As far as my love life, nothing special is happening there. I've really been self-centered. Meaning I've been really focused on myself and not on any relationship with anyone. I've still been dating the one and only guy I've been going out with for a while. He's a sweetheart and I enjoy his company but he and I are not serious.

Besides all of the things I've mentioned above, moving has been on my mind a lot. Not just moving out of my mother's house and relocating in Chicago but more about my move to Houston and just my future in general. Trying to figure out exactly what I want out of life and how I plan to get it. Now is such a crucial time in my life and I'm more focused now than I have ever been.

I promised myself that 2016 would see a new and improved me;  a healthier me in all aspects of my life. I push myself everyday and I haven't grown tired yet. I'm out for revenge on 2015; I'm coming for everything that year took from me and more.